I'm the president of the deviants society.
What that means is that I organise things for the metal heads, goths, alts, and etcs of my uni.
And then they all bitch about it.
Sorry, that's all I really have to say. But I feel sick from stress right now. I keep getting told off by the people in the society for not asking them about things or getting them invovled. We hav e a week of events coming up and no-one wants to help in any way, shape or form. But they will all bitch about it.
Oh yes.
They will find something. They will find the small little details and bitch, not remembering that when I asked for help, or what they wanted, and tried not to do everything by myself and get stressed out to hell they didn't help at all.
And I may just be getting paranoid, and wishing that one of them would fucking understand and try to do the whole strong leader thing by not saying this to their faces, but I really don't know what to do about it. I can't turn around and ask form more help than I have because they've already mostly turned their backs on helping me. They do have work to do like essays and revision, but I do as well. I'm in my third year. I need to pass this. I don't need to be organising a week of events with no help whatsoever. But if I don't they'll complain. If I do, they'll complain because it won't be good enough because none of them A)turned up B) were involved fully and c) helped in anyway. And they'll say I didn't ask.
And I'll say nothing and smile and try to take solace that I gave it my freaking all and still tried not to fail university and sort out things for the Edinburgh fringe festival. Which the dates have been set for now and I'm trying to sort out accommodation and finance for us (in part; I'm not doing tat one by myself fortunately, but its just one extra thing).
Oh, I also have a job now, so finance is coming in, but its taking a lot of time out of my life. But I'm enjoying it. I'm actually doing something with myself now which isn't sitting at a computer. I'm feeling better about myself for that.
I'm off my prozac as well now.
Anyways, yes, I'm coming back to DA.
Slowly.
Somehow. I have a story to put on here when I actually get to university. Till then. Dunno. Might write something.